EmmaammE

Ive been sat here nearly and hour wondering what it is i want to put here today. I cant really be bothered but i no when i get going that ill burst and write loads, either that or ill curl up and...

i wona be sick! i dont feel sick i dont feel full or blosted i just wona be sick.I think i need to loose more than 2 stone aswel.

i dont no what to say anymore im a mess. ive spent today excersising and when i got tired and couldnt do any more i got anoyed coz i couldnt do anymore and felt i was just being lazy and giving in....

Its too much i need to take more laxatives my whole body is shaking and asking for them i need them in me i need something in me. I had some chocolate ones and melted them and put them in milk. my...

i need laxatives i cant live with out them. i didnt have any yesterday and im craving them now!!! ahh yuk i just made hot chocolate and now i feel fat and bloated and totally gross!Ow this is...

Apparently im ill! to ill to work. i got to go out so ill finish this when i get back!

its madness i so badly want to loose weight and be thinner but this morning i looked in the mirror and thought my stomach looked really tiny then i sat on my bed and it rolled and i could grab at the...

Im watching supersize me and it is disgusting making me feel quite sick! all those really over weight people and all that greese and fat how can they do that to themselves. I feel a bit......well...

my friend wants me to call my mum and then book myself in to the hospital. im gona call my other riend 1st because i really dont want to do that but want her to come with me if she thinks the same....

i really cant drink and i have to be at work in an hour! i called my friend and she found a helpline number for me and i called them but they didnt really help much they just said that i had to drink...

How screwed up is this? So i guess im addicted to laxatives. i really needed some today so i took them but then i was like oh crap wot about work they are gona kick in right in the middle of work so...

I want to go back to my mums. Everyone hates me here! no joke. im always in trouble at work and for no reason usually. ive been shouted at by my line manager and her manager today and had a really...

yesterday was mega triggering. now i dont want to eat and if it wasnt for having to work id take a whole load of laxatives! in fact i hate food so much right now that ive hidden all my safe food away...

I am just so tired. tired tired tired! My counsellor justified my ED to me today that the way i was eating was fine! what an idiot!

I didnt take those extra laxatives last night but i was rough the whole night when the others kicked in and ive been badly dehydrated all day i cant get rid of my dry mouth and i always get a yellow...