I cant wait to get home on wednesday but at the same time i want to stay at home. I guess i have got throught christmas and new year because i have eaten not taken so much laxatives and behaved my self (well in a way that i should!) I want to go back to restricting what i eat and try to loose any wieght that i have put on this last 2 weeks plus a bit more not much more but a bit of tonning would be good. I bought a trampoline this week so i can do some more excersing. I kinda want to stay at home aswel because whilst im here im eating (not that i have any choice) and i dont have to face anything here. I no i need to go back to get better because im binging here and not helping myself get to the root of the problems. I think im kinda scared and excited all at the same time. Wednesday i go back and see the phyciatrist then thursday i see the county council nurse to see if im fit to work then i have the rest of the week off to think about what im going to do and get ready for work or to find a new job! Well 8 minutes and it will be a new year!!! Bring it on!