If i was to die i think i would like to die in my sleep and not know about it. I.....I......dont want to die but i have a massive urge to take all the laxatives i have in my draw. Ive just counted them i have 51 does left not much! ive had between 40-45 does today and no reaction from them. I suppose the more you take the more you need to have an effect. i could take the last few pro plus with them and some paracetamol! hum........i dont think it would do much though make me sick possibly faint or have to go to hospital. certainly dont think it will kill me. Look im not sure why i feel this way or thinking these things because i dont want to die i want to live a long successful life. Ive got myself in such a mess. i cant cope with the simplest of things. My skin feels like its crawling. im shattered completly exhausted but i cant sleep. my concerntration is crap i keep get really distracted by random things. i have so many triggering questions at the moment that make me sound like a head case. i just.....i dunno......want a new start want this to be over want to be able to think normally and for people not to always patronise me 'because your ill!!!' i feel guilty everytime i eat anything. really i could eat those laxatives right now. I no i should care and deep down i do. I dont want to be sick or go to hospital or die but i cant think beyond! plus i cant seem to cut anymore so i cant even get any relief from a few scratches! Grrrrr
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Sweetie, FLUSH THOSE LAXATIVES down the toilet. You say you don\'t want to die, but you\'re slowly killing yourself. You may feel like you\'re in a mess today, but there is a way out. You can choose recovery. I used to feel the way you did. I didn\'t want to die, but I didn\'t want to hurt anymore and I didn\'t know what else to do to stop the pain. I clung to food, gorging myself to try to make the hurt go away. I didn\'t think I could survive without bingeing. But now in the few short days I\'ve been working on recovery, I can\'t imagine my life with bingeing. It was a very lonely, empty place. I needed bingeing at the time to survive, and now that I\'ve given it up I\'m learning how to live and enjoy life. Hang in there and don\'t give up on yourself!
no what are talking about please dont do this to yourself
I\'m so sorry you are in such a bad spot. You probably feel so lousy because you have a cold and took all those laxatives. You must be dehydrated as hell. Can you get some gatorade in? Once you are over your cold and feeling a little better you should look into a treatment plan, inpatient or residential, because you really sound like you are ready to get rid of ED. You want a normal life and success so bad but with ED that\'s impossible. So take that scary step and look for help. You talk about taking all those pills and cutting but I think deep down you don\'t want that. You even say you don\'t want to die. Give yourself a break and use your energy in a positive way. Good luck, hon.
I have been where you are. I took 50 laxatives at one time. I ended up in the emergency ward dehydrated and seriously ill. I just shutter when you mention taking them. Things will be much worse with your health if you follow through. Call a friend, listen to music with your eyes closed and think of somewhere you want to visit. Just be careful and take care of your body.
Emma, Emma, oh Emma, Firstly you can email me anytime, I am online every day and will always get back to you. Now about these laxatives, I can and only will speak to you of my experiences and always give you facts, its up to you whether you take my advice. Laxatives are primarily used to \"make the stools softer\" and give \"easier bowel movememnts\", overuse or inappropriate use is very harmful to the body, I may have told you that my aunt was a laxative abuser and ended up with colostomy bags and bowel cancer which killed her but it was a very long slow painful death, with no dignity and not pleasant. So I urge you once again, please get rid of the laxatives, they will only make you feel worse, bloat you, and willnot help with weight control at all. I am going to email you separately on other matters. Fane x
Laxatives are not the answer...they\'ll only burn a hole in your stomach. Then you\'ll have to suffer with possible IBS. That\'s even less fun to have to live with.
Please don\'t do it...it\'s not worth it.
thanks guys for all your comments x x x