Pauljac49

My dear dear family. There has been a lot going on in my life and I haven't been writing for a long time. First, thank you all for remembering Jackie. If it wasn't for all of you I never would have...

This was such a hard week. The anticipation leading up to this day was so overwhelming. It was all I could think about. I miss Jackie so much that some days even after 3 years I shut down and just...

THANKS FOR THE RESPONSES.  MY KNEE SURGERY WENT VERY WELL.  THIS IS THE SECOND ONE.  THE FIRST WAS TWO YEARS AGO AND BECAUSE IT WENT SO WELL I DID THE OTHER KNEE.OSTEOARTHRITIS ATE AWAY THE...

IT HAS BEEN QUITE A LONG TIME SINCE I HAVE BEEN ON THIS SITE.  I WAS IN A LITTLE DOWNWARD SPIRAL FOR A WHILE AND THEN I HAD A TOTAL KNEE REPLACEMENT ON JANUARY 11TH.  STAYING IN THE HOSPITAL AND...

ITS BEEN A WHILE MY DEAR SISTERS SINCE I WROTE.  MY LAPTOP CRASHED AND MY BEDROOM COMPUTER WAS SO SLOW I HAD NO PATENCE.   I SEE A THERAPIST NOW AND INCREASED MY MEDS BY A HALF IN THE...

It's 3:30 am. I can't sleep. My nieces wedding is oct 19. It's such a happy occasion I'm so anxious and hoping that I can hold up. Jackie was supposed to stand up for her. Melissa is putting a...

THANKS TO EVERYONE WHO COMMENTED ON MY JOURNAL.  I KNOW THAT POSITIVE ENERGY WILL COME TO ME FROM ALL MY SOTH.  AS MY THERAPIST WOULD SAY "THIS IS ONE CLUB WE NEVER WANTED TO BE IN."    SHE ALSO...

HI EVERYONE,  WISH  ME LUCK THAT THIS WORKS OUT FOR ME.  I HAVE RESISTED THIS FOR TWO YEARS.   I  KEPT TELLING MYSELF WHAT CAN A THERAPIST DO FOR ME.  I LOST MY DAUGHTER AND THAT LOSS AND PAIN...

I WANT  TO THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH FOR YOUR LOVING AND COMFORTING WORDS.  TRULY, I HAVE BEEN SO UNHAPPY AND FEEL LIKE MY LIFE IS JUST STUCK IN THIS HORRIBLE PLACE.  WHEN I SAW MY PSYCHIATRIST THE...

Hi everyone. I haven't written in a while. While I have been on the go and plan to write at night. I get too tired. Jackie's angel date May 10th was 2 days before Mother's Day. Agood friend of...

THANK YOU  ALL SO MUCH FOR ALL YOUR PRAYERS AND COMFORT ON JACKIES ANGEL DAY.  TODAY, ON MOTHER'S DAY, THAT IS SO HARD FOR ALL OF US, I WISH YOU PEACE AND SERENITY.  I HAVEN'T WRITTEN  LATERLY...

HI EVERYONE,  I HAVEN'T WRITTEN IN A WHILE BUT TRY TO READ THE JOURNALS AS OFTEN AS I CAN.  ONE DAY IM GOOD, ONE DAY BAD AND THAT BAD DAY LEADS INTO ANOTHER.  JACKIE WILL BE GONE 2 YEARS ON MAY...

HI EVERYONE,  WELL, I GOT THROUGH CHRISTMAS OK.  THE EVE I WAS WITH MY SON, SISTER AND FAMILY,  MY NEW GREAT GRANDSON WAS THERE WITH HIS PARENTS AND WE HAD A WONDERFUL TIME.  HE IS SUCH A...

TO ALL OF YOU WHO HAVE SUPPORTED ME SO MUCH.  IT IS THROUGH ALL YOUR LOVE, UNDERSTANDING AND SUPPORT THAT I HAVE BEEN ABLE TO GET THROUGH ALL THIS. ITS SO HARD THIS TIME OF YEAR, I WENT TO THE...

ITS 10:00 P.M,. AND I JUST GOT A PHONE CALL FROM MY NEPHEW, (MY BEST FRIEND'S SON), WE ARE VERY CLOSE.  HE IS GAY AND CAME OUT A YEAR AFTER JACKIE.    THEY WERE ALSO VERY CLOSE.  HE WAS...