TO ALL MY PRECIOUS SISTERS
TO ALL OF YOU WHO HAVE SUPPORTED ME SO MUCH. IT IS THROUGH ALL YOUR LOVE, UNDERSTANDING AND SUPPORT THAT I HAVE BEEN ABLE TO GET THROUGH ALL THIS.
ITS SO HARD THIS TIME OF YEAR, I WENT TO THE CEMETARY AND MY SISTER AND I DECORATED THE BUSHES ABOVE JACKIES STONE AND MADE A BEAUTIFUL CHRISTMAS TREE OUT OF THEM. WE PLANTED POINSETTA'S ALSO. I GOT THROUGH IT PRETTY OK AND THOUGHT TO MYSELF "WOW" I'M DOING GOOD. THEN YESTERDAY DURING OUR COOKING AND CLEANING I CAME ACROSS THE CARDS AND NOTES JACKIE WOULD LEAVE ME.
THE FLOOD GATES OPENED, I COULDN'T STOP CRYING. HOW CAN A CHILD WHO WROTE SUCH LOVING THINGS TO HER MOTHER TAKE HER LIFE. I WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND AND I KNOW I'M GOING TO HAVE TO ACCEPT IT ONE DAY.
LAST YEAR FOR CHRISTMAS I FORCED MYSELF TO GO TO MY SON CHRISTMAS EVE. THIS YEAR I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO IT. I RECOGNIZE THAT IS A BIG STEP FOR ME, AND X-MAS DAY I AM HAVING MY BEST FRIEND AND HER FAMILY FOR DINNER. IT HAS BEEN THAT WAY FOR YEARS. I MISS JACKIE SO, SO MUCH AND I TELL HER EVERY NIGHT BEFORE I GO TO SLEEP I LOVE YOU MORE JAC, AND MISS YOU SO MUCH. I HOPE SHE HEARS ME.
ANYWAY, I JUST WANTED TO WISH ALL MY PRECIOUS SISTERS ON THIS SITE A VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS AND TO CELEBRATE THE BEST YOU CAN AND LETS PRAY THAT THE NEW YEAR BRINGS US NO MORE SORROW. JUST HAPPINESS. LOVE YOU ALL, GAIL
ITS SO HARD THIS TIME OF YEAR, I WENT TO THE CEMETARY AND MY SISTER AND I DECORATED THE BUSHES ABOVE JACKIES STONE AND MADE A BEAUTIFUL CHRISTMAS TREE OUT OF THEM. WE PLANTED POINSETTA'S ALSO. I GOT THROUGH IT PRETTY OK AND THOUGHT TO MYSELF "WOW" I'M DOING GOOD. THEN YESTERDAY DURING OUR COOKING AND CLEANING I CAME ACROSS THE CARDS AND NOTES JACKIE WOULD LEAVE ME.
THE FLOOD GATES OPENED, I COULDN'T STOP CRYING. HOW CAN A CHILD WHO WROTE SUCH LOVING THINGS TO HER MOTHER TAKE HER LIFE. I WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND AND I KNOW I'M GOING TO HAVE TO ACCEPT IT ONE DAY.
LAST YEAR FOR CHRISTMAS I FORCED MYSELF TO GO TO MY SON CHRISTMAS EVE. THIS YEAR I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO IT. I RECOGNIZE THAT IS A BIG STEP FOR ME, AND X-MAS DAY I AM HAVING MY BEST FRIEND AND HER FAMILY FOR DINNER. IT HAS BEEN THAT WAY FOR YEARS. I MISS JACKIE SO, SO MUCH AND I TELL HER EVERY NIGHT BEFORE I GO TO SLEEP I LOVE YOU MORE JAC, AND MISS YOU SO MUCH. I HOPE SHE HEARS ME.
ANYWAY, I JUST WANTED TO WISH ALL MY PRECIOUS SISTERS ON THIS SITE A VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS AND TO CELEBRATE THE BEST YOU CAN AND LETS PRAY THAT THE NEW YEAR BRINGS US NO MORE SORROW. JUST HAPPINESS. LOVE YOU ALL, GAIL
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It\'s the little steps we must acknowledge. That fact that you are looking forward to going to your son\'s house is a huge step even if we don\'t think so. This is the first year I felt like sending cards to a few friends and relatives...I couldn\'t find mine so I emailed them. Small steps add up, my friend....love, Connie
Have a blessed holiday with your son and your friend,,love ya!!
And the same back atcha!! YOU have supported, encouraged, and enlighten all of us in equal measure!
May your holiday be filled with joy, laughter, and all the love Jackie has for you! YES, she most definitely hears you!!!
Love you my friend~~Teri
Just have a blessed Chrismas, whether it be through joy with tears, it doesn\'t matter. We will survive and do what is best for us. But together in this group, we have a strength and bond that we know we have somewhere to go, (here) if all else fails.
This IS grace and healing in action. To be able to see how far those baby steps have taken you dear friend.
May Jackie BE ever present in your heart as you go about your day and each of us brings so much to FMO. Thank you for being one of my companions on this path none of us ever imagined we would find ourselves on.
Loving care to you and may Jackie lean gently on her favorite side yours and let you know that she has never left... Just been transformed into a healed and loving presence and wants to BE able to share that with you. This is how I feel Douglas and I have the strongest sense that it is what our children are up to.
In gratitude for you and for your lovely words and heart.
Much love and peace in the midst for each of us.
XO Joanie
I\'m doing much better this year also. FMO is the best medicine. Being able to talk to SOTHs such as you that have had the same most horrible tragedy ever imagined for a mother is what has gotten me through this year and on the road to healing. We will go forward and get through next year too.
Gail, you are doing well and have a great attitude. I believe Jackie hears all you whisper to her. Love and peace, Linda