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Rick worked out that I have been about 25 days free of glue..and woah has my mind and my whole being came right back to being human! I wish to say that the slimy stuff is repulsive and If I had it...

I slept at about 12 last night and woke at around 5..couldnt get back to sleep. I ws just laying there not scared. I slept with one light on last night! I went to the docs and the infection in my leg...

I've just seen Rick..and I made real progress. I feel so undescribably at peace withmyself. The sun is comeing through my window, I even removed the curtains so I could have the whole window...

So I played 4 games of polo all day. at least I didnt have to spend it at work. Mom and I fought on the way here and on the way home. I felt so weak at polo. And in between games all I could do was...

I feel like shit. I am alone. There is nobody here to look after me for once and why? because I fucking withdrew from everyone. no ones ever gunna want me anyway. I'll never be thin enough. my skin...

so angry. cant break free. I cry all the time. cant do this for much longer. and nothing is going right. everything just lowers me into a bottomless hell. im not going to be here for much longer.

 I've found a place. Its a secret. And I ark my car on the side of the road..walk along the road for a bit and then a trail goes under a bridge and theres this huge pipe running under the bridge and...

I dont know why im still alove. I cant do anything right and the slightest thing sets me off.i cant shake it off this time and I am fastly choking on all my misery. I cant escape it and it cant...

Sipping my rockstar. Just like the old days. My head is so heavy. Completly scattered too. The cicadas are somewhat comforting. I'd even do petrol now if my mother wasnt standing downstairs. All I...

Canoe polo. Bindged. Solway. Driving. Suicide. Mother in my fucking room. Can't cry. What a fat bitch I am. What a skeleton she is.

I HONESTLY JUST WANT SOME FUCKING GLUE.  I know its bad but that doesn't take it away.

I am sick to my stomach with this world. nothing is right abotu me and nothing is right about anything.Dont ask me to wake up and face another day cos I dont fuckin want to. I'd rather drown in a...

I have cradle of filth blasting me to what should be deafness by now. Lying on my bedroom floor. I flipped out so I started to clean my room and now ive finished my room, finished my excersizes I...

oh and I have been glue free for 7 days now..except last night I opened a thing of twink and saw some aliens or soemthing..and Ive been using petrol except ifI use to much it makes me spew which I...

My sister asked me to come into wellington to go see her so I said yeah saturday after work. then I got a txt just before (tomorow is saturday) saying that plans had come up that she couldnt get out...