Day 2

I slept at about 12 last night and woke at around 5..couldnt get back to sleep. I ws just laying there not scared. I slept with one light on last night! I went to the docs and the infection in my leg still hasnt gone so I get another 4 days off school and week off work. There is something all around me. It is the easiness in my steps, the clarity in my brain. Just bout 5 minutes ago I asked God to come back into my heart and my life..I can't remeber what I said actually..the moment was like a dream and I don't think I even blinked. But my body kinda shivered all over, I remember that. I feel already like I have more of a pulse. Its amazing. Life has become one amazing thing after the other at the moment..I wrote a poem that even blew my own self away..I can't wait to tell Rick how much more alive I feel nd how easier it is to breathe. To think that I empaled my head on an impurewound of slime and terror is well I don't want to think about it.  For the first time in  long time I feel looked after and cared for. I feel that God's arms are around me and with him near me nothing can get me down. Nothing can get me down. We all have the power lying inside ourselves and I reckon that we have to go through the terrible things so that the times that make you at peace with yourself are a much bigger significance. Nothing can get me down.