mahalarose

So aparantly me now being vegan is the most upsetting thing ever, My parents didn't like theidea but I don't care. I am going to wellington today with 2 of my friends, were gunna get stoned alllll...

Ive changed my gw to 110lbs. I just ate like 5 people worth of pasta, omg, but its out of my stomach now. Im so scared that some more is left in there. Rick and I figured out that all my life I have...

I have realised how out of control I have once again let things become. I have realised that I don't know how to get everything back to where I was happy to be. I have realised that I am still a...

I am feeling very low. My car broke down on the way home. I then decided I would have a tomato sandwich and ended up cutting the tipp of my finger off, it still bleeding. I cried and then when I was...

I am feeling amazing. I have been keeping occupied and bascically just not stopping. I do make sure I get at east 10 hours sleep each night and I am taking vitiman pills and woah what a difference. I...

I saw rick about two hours and we talked about the diffence between isolation and independence...MY GRIPS CAME TODAY!!!  I had to go pick them up cos the post man didnt want to leave them with no...

I ended up getting totally stoned, it was fun although I shouldn't have drove home. I have started a new goal to loose weight. Its my ball coming up on August 1st and I have really let myself go. I...

Im going to masterton tomorow to see Amy and Hana and hopefully get stoned again. I'm sick of Mahala's mind for a bit, and Rick encouraged me to do it..well his words were "If I had one hand of glue...

I want to cut my wrist. Any other place on my body is not the same. My wrist has healed to faint shimmers in the light. I want to do it. I need to but I don't know if I will. My wrist, I can hold it...

I will not iinjure myself  to spite her or releive myself. I can do it another way. get out of my head all of you and just leave me and calmness alone. Anger I try to fight and fight the wrong way....

I spent 7 hours in the hospital last night/this morning getting home at 3 am cos I busted my ankle at gymnastics. So I feel helpless, I hate being injured, but it is a welcome break from work (I get...

I have had hardly any time to think lately! I worked thursday and had school, I then had school on friday and worked, I worked saturday and sunday 7-2 then came home and spent 6 hours on my...

As bad as I felt I am now breathing the freshest of air in this new enviroment I would adore to call home. I went to gymnastics for the first time in three weeks! man did my spilts hurt. And I ripped...

I was swinging on the swings in the park today before my self esteem meeting..Swinging has been a way of informally rearanging myself and giving me something fresh. I was swinging for aboutu 10...

I am going to loose weight.