I feel like I am gunna die.30 minutes ago I was thinking of vicky and I was so happy then now Im just nothing, compettly numb.but very angry. these mood swings seem to be changing so much faster. I don't even know why Im so angry..I havent written a poem since god knows when..perhaps 4 days..Which is long for me because I usually write up to four poems a day. now Im sitting here eating licorice like a fat pig, it seems this whole big cycle. I tell myslef to wait for tomorow because you never know Vicky might talk or do somthing or hug meb but nothing good ever happens the next day.I wish I could fly.