Larissa238

I almost forgot to do my journal today. I went to sleep at 8 pm because I was so tired. My friend, Carol, who I was worried about called me at 10 pm so I woke up and talked to her for a couple hours....

I feel about the same as I did yesterday... I did manage to go out for a 0.8 mile walk, so that's something. I cleaned the kitchen some more... It's something that needs to be done daily it seems......

Here's a poem I wrote in August of 2009I'm so sick of this tapeStuck on repeat in my headPlaying over every memory.So you know what?I'm moving on. I have the strength nowTo do what I never thought...

Here's a poem I just wrote:Chasing the dragons of my mindThoughts coming out of the darkness of my mindSome good, some bad.The dragons hide in the cave of my headWaiting to torch the good.I have to...

Today I'm feeling much better. I don't know if it was from the advice that I sought from the people in the keto forum, but I feel better. I'm going to do the same thing tonight- chicken broth and...

I didn't have a good day today. I was expecting a package, so I set my alarm for 10:30 am (the beginning time that they could have come), grabbed my blanket and teddy bear and slept on the couch so I...

So I saw my therapist today. Last night I was actually suicidal and had the urge to cut *so* bad. So I called her, and she told me to take a shower, listen to some music and go for a walk. It helped...

Today was another crappy day. I couldn't sleep last night, and woke up feeling like pure and utter crap again. I'm still in pain. Geo and I had another head butting session, but then he came in and...

So you can see a pattern in my last couple of entries. Crap. Just crap. I volunteered for a bit, and that went okay. I had  to leave early since I was starting to get mood swings. I came home, took...

Today was another crappy day. I don't know what it is, but my body is just exhausted and in pain. I feel like every muscle in my body is sore and I just ran a marathon. I'm weak. I went grocery...

Today was another crappy day. Worse than the past 2 days. When I got up to get breakfast/lunch (I woke up at 1 pm) I had some pork rinds and had a craving for my roast beef wrapped string cheese. I...

Today was another crappy day. I slept in until 3:30 pm and still had to drag myself out of bed. I'm sore all over and exhausted. I tried going for a walk to make myself feel better, but it just made...

Today was crap. I woke up at 1 pm and still felt tired. I tried going back to sleep, but couldn't. Then we go to the store and I got too much food for our food stamps, so I had to pay some out of...

I finally started volunteering today. I haven't been in a couple of months... I was just not up to it. I had a good day, but at the end this guy tried to ruin it for me (I'm trying to get over it)....

My goal (one of them) for the month of August is going to be to journal every day. I haven't been keeping up with them because I've been spending time on another site typing about my day and by the...