Larissa238

I did a 10k yesterday! I'm really proud of myself! Now onto a half marathon, then onto a marathon! It's been a lifelong dream of mine to do a marathon, and now I'm going to do it! I'm signed up for...

I haven't really updated on the drama that's been my life for the past year. First, last December Geo and I decide we aren't in love with each other. January my mom goes into hospice and gets really...

I just talked to a friend, Tabetha. She was in a car accident yesterday and went to the hospital afterwards! I had this feeling after my night terror that someone I knew was going to get into a car...

It's 2:17 in the morning right now. I just woke up about 20 minutes ago. I had this horrible dream about... I don't know what about. I was trying to fall asleep and my legs were moving like they had...

I'm in a better state mentally today for the most part. I'm still suffering from brief bouts of depression, but that's about all that is bad for my mind. I'm dealing with the physical effects of...

I was thinking today that I am dealing with my mom's death and leaving Geo in a great way, and that I might not be dealing with it internally. Then I was thinking that I dealt with my Nana's death...

Things are actually good right now, despite being with Geo for almost 12 years. I love him, but I need to be happy. He has helped me from a suicidal wreck to someone who believes in herself. He got...

High energy! I'm cleaning cleaning cleaning! I scrubbed the kitchen floor and anything I could reach from there. The kitchen looks good from the counters down. I cleaned the closet a bit and packed...

I'm back again! I am trying to blog every day so I can track my moods better. I am losing weight again, and down a pound and a half for the year (I started at 235.5, I got up to 239, low as 233, but...

My mom had been sick for a couple months, and she passed away at 5:15 this morning (Eastern). She died in peace. Her husband, Tracy, was by her side and she was in and out of sleep and heard a...

I hope nobody is worried about me after my last journal. I am okay. Sorry for the long time between jounals, especially such an emotional one at that. Yesterday I met my new therapist and I like her....

I have been going through hell. Geo and I are pretty much over, after over 11 and a half years. We just are not in love with each other anymore. It's both of us, not one of us calling it quits. We...

I don't know what to do. I want to spend time with my mom but I'm going crazy up here. I have only been here for a couple days and I'm already going crazy. I'm sick of TV and that's all they do up...

I had a December breakdown yesterday. I was crying and crying. I wanted Geo to come in and comfort me since I have been dealing with a lot. He didn't. He heard me crying and ignored me. While he...

There is this song by the John Butler Trio that's called "Better Than" and one of my favorite lines is "Why do I look to the other side cuz I know the grass is greener but just as hard to mow".I'm...