Crappy Day #3

Today was another crappy day. Worse than the past 2 days. When I got up to get breakfast/lunch (I woke up at 1 pm) I had some pork rinds and had a craving for my roast beef wrapped string cheese. I go to the fridge and all the roast beef is gone. When I wrote it on the grocery list in front of Geo, he remarked "That's for you, right?" and I said yeah. He said good. Now he ate almost the entire container of roast beef. I ask him every time I write the grocery list what he wants. Sometimes he tells me, sometimes he just gets in a hissy fit and says nothing. I still get him food to eat, which he goes through in a day and then eats all my food. I ask him what he wants. Apparently what he wants is my food. I don't ask for much- just tell me what you want to eat! How hard is that? We are almost out of food stamp money and he still won't tell me what he wants to eat. We have tons of eggs. I've been eating eggs almost every morning. We got 5 dozen eggs, and when we would get eggs before that, he would eat a dozen in a couple days. Now he won't touch them... instead he eats my cheese sticks and roast beef. I can't eat a lot of things, and he takes the few things that I can eat and eats them. I was so pissed this morning it set me off into a horrible mood swing. I wanted to hit him, I wanted to curl up in bed and cry, I wanted to scream, I wanted to hurt myself... just all these crazy emotions going through. I took a Klonopin for my sanity and fell back asleep until 4. I burned through most of it, but its coming back a bit now that I'm talking about it. I need to be really calm the next time we go shopping and tell him to tell me what he wants because he needs to stop eating my food. I don't eat his food so he shouldn't eat mine. Especially since I'm paying for my food out of my pocket. He just is a food addict, and there's nothing I can do to change him, but it's just one of my HUGE pet peeves. It pisses me off to no end. Okay, I need to stop talking about this since I'm getting madder and madder.