heretic

It's a new year and I'm haunted by memories, some years old. I wish I could forget about all the bad stuff that has happened but some days it's all I think about. It doesn't help that I am alone so...

It's been a couple of years now since getting on meds. And I've finally found the right combo. I take 5 different meds a day, in the morning and at night, but I no longer feel like shit, nor do I...

the pdoc didn't think I needed the hospital right then, she asked me if I was feeling suicidal right then and I had to say no I told her about the episodes I've had this last month and she just said...

I have a pdoc appt on monday and this time I'm going to have to tell them I'm suicidal, I'm going to have to go into the hospital and I'm really nervous to go. I don't know how I will be treated...

I'm out of a job and have enough money for two weeks rent. I have two weeks left to live on this miserable earth. Maybe less. Depends on if I can get up the guts before I get the eviction notice....

God gave me to sadistic parents, knowing exactly what would happen to me. As a child I begged god to send my "real" parents to come and get me. I needed parents who loved me. God refused. When I was...

Laid off again at the end of the week, means rent will be paid till sept 9th, then I'm either on the street or hopefully dead.I hate life so badly, every single minute is tortureI've been told so...

I hate life so badly, I pray and pray and pray for death. God is such a cruel and evil being - I hate god with a passion, When I am dead and stand before god I will spit in his face. I don't want to...

I am so tired of life, it wish so bad it was over, every day is misery

More people talking about dogs - how much they care for them.Makes me wish I was dog. So many dogs get better care thanpeople do. I'm glad for the dog but sad for myself. But if I pointthis out in...

I'd like to hear from people who are forced to work - like me. I feel so left out on the boards with all the people who talk about how they are gonna fill their day. It makes me wanna SCREAM. I want...

I go back to work tomorrow, if there really is work for the next couple of weeks I might be ok, till another slow down that is, then I'm in a shelter for sure. I don't even know for sure that there...

I am jealous of -People who don't have to workPeople who have access to medical careIt's hard to communicate in the boards when I'm so jealous of the majority of people on here. When a post ask what...

My unemployment benefits ran out and my job only gave me 10 hours this week. I will be able to pay the rent for 2 more weeks but if we don't get more hours next week then I will be homeless soon,...

I just want to let it out , that I can't stop thinking about the past and I think a big reason is because I have nothing else going on in my life. Nothing else to think about. It would be cool if...