Time is running out

Laid off again at the end of the week, means rent will be paid till sept 9th, then I'm either on the street or hopefully dead.
I hate life so badly, every single minute is torture
I've been told so many times to forget about needing to be loved, but it's all that matters. Nothing else matters. I need to live with someone who loves me. But no one does. Many people say they do - but they won't actually DO it. It's all talk. Easy to say you care about someone when you aren't expected to actually take care of them.
I hate life badly, I wish I was done with this hellish life