God is a Sadist

God gave me to sadistic parents, knowing exactly what would happen to me. As a child I begged god to send my "real" parents to come and get me. I needed parents who loved me. God refused.
When I was a teen I begged god to send me someone to love me. God refused
When I was in my 20s I begged god to send someone who loved me. God refused
In my 30s - same thing, 40s - same thing. I've now been pleading with god for 50 years. God is a fucking sadistic piece of shit.

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darkenedheart
darkenedheart

I\'m sorry.
I dont know how to comfort you as I dont believe in God. Maybe some of your other friends can. Gentle hugs
deleted_user
deleted_user

Perhaps, GOD is not there,so why waste any more time. I am agnostic after many years trying to find my faith. All it did was frustrate me, so, now I don\'t have the frustration or the anger to deal with. I hope you can too.
deleted_user
deleted_user

There is no god
deleted_user
deleted_user

i\'m so sorry honey...i wonder if God exists anymore.
deleted_user
deleted_user

If he is he isn\'t listening he choosing not to see. Not to care. I get it.