counting the days
I'm out of a job and have enough money for two weeks rent. I have two weeks left to live on this miserable earth. Maybe less. Depends on if I can get up the guts before I get the eviction notice. I've hated living in this slum anyway. I've needed someone living with me helping me for so long now. It's absolutely fucking tragic that in 50 years I have never gotten the care I need. I will go into the hospital on Monday, that is when I have my pdoc appt and I'll insist they admit me. Then when I get out and have no where to go I will end it. It's a relief knowing I will soon be through with the suffering I've endured for so long
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This is a very sad journal. I am worried about you, and I do know what it is like to be worried about a place to live. I hate to hear of you wishing to end your life. Wishing you would realize that there are people willing to help you. I truly mean that. Just worried about you.
No. You\'re not ending your life. You\'re a very good friend and there must be someone willing to take you in. Its hard but possibly find another job :)
i wish for an end to your pain. it has been relentless all the year and half i have known you.
hi. i think that at the hospital, a social worker will listen to your situation and try to help with what they can, possibly housing subsidy, hopefully something, you never know. maybe disability, i so hope there is something they can do for you, it\'s abouttime something goes right for you my friend. life can be just to cruel andhard, i know. please let me know how you are doing. you know, my mother, when i used to go to the ER, she would tell me to \"ham it up\", do that when you go to hospital so that you get the services you need.
my wish for you is to find peace. you\'re not alone in your misery, believe me. ((((((((((Big Hugs))))))))))