Wishing I was Dead
I hate life so badly, I pray and pray and pray for death. God is such a cruel and evil being - I hate god with a passion, When I am dead and stand before god I will spit in his face. I don't want to go to work, it will be pure misery. People pray for me to feel better but they should be praying for my release from this hellish nightmare.
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Huge hugs for you.
I will pray for you to feel better. I know life is difficult, sometimes I wish I weren\'t a part of it. Unfortunately, we all seem to be here for some time on the school of hard knocks called Earth and while we are here we have to live w/our own and other people\'s free will. At least that is my philosophy on what the heck is going on here.
There is an older lady I have talked to who is a Holocaust survivor, I always think of her at times like this. How does she still have faith after seeing Bergen-Belsen? This is the philosophy she told me. Apparently we aren\'t here to be on some sort of pleasant vacation otherwise there would be no point of us being there. I hope that helps.