heretic

I wish my life was over so badly, I hate being alive. Actually I wish I'd never been born, I have so many bad memories that I will take with me to the grave. I don't have a single happy memory. Life...

My life is pure misery. I hate every second of it. I hate sleeping in my car, I hate spending every day at the library. I hate the miserable heat that drives me to seek shelter. I hate not having...

I am so tired. Tired of sleeping in my car, it's so uncomfortable and the heat is stifling. So tired of being homeless, but there is nothing that can be done about it. So tired of eating the horrible...

I am so worn down. I haven't had a good nights sleep in a month. The days and nights drag on. Sleeping in the car is so hard, I am awakened every few minutes by the heat or the traffic. This morning...

I live in the shadow of suicide, it's all I think about all day and night. I wish I could buy a gun and put a bullet in my brain. Life is so painful. I have so many bad memories that haunt me all day...

I am sad and scared and lonely. My life is shit. I hate having to work, hate having bipolar and hate being alone. I can't make friends because I am down all the time. I hate how I look, 80 pounds...

My internet service provider has blocked DS saying it is an unsafe site. So I am at the library now to gain access. I may be able to come here once a week or maybe once a month I don't know.When...

I have a lot of Vistaril saved up, over 400 pills.I took 6 the other night to see what it would do to me.It knocked me out pretty good, so I think that takingseveral hundred may kill me. I can't keep...

I feel like I'm screaming on the inside. I hate my life so badly.I wish it was over, I hate everything about it. I can't keep workingand I can't be homeless. I have no one to care for me. I've...

I've applied for disability and it's been almost a year now. They have made me jump through many hoops, had several interviews, they last one was with a disability psychiatrist last week. I should...

I've written this before.I wish I was dead.I hate working and feel so envious of those who don't have to.It's torture.I beg god every night to let me die in my sleep.Every morning I wake up to the...

I had the best weekend ever, I had a friend come to visit me from California and he stayed over for 4 days. We had the best time I could have imagined. We did so many fun things. we went to a punk...

I hate mondays, it just means there is a whole week of fucking work ahead of me. It really sucks

I feel so damn sorry for myself. All I think about is poor me. I try to think of others but it takes conscious effort, like it's un natural to me.A friend pointed out that I've talked about suicide...

I've had enough. I can't take the stress of working anymore and I surely couldn't handle the stress of homelessness again. I think about throwing myself in front of fast moving traffic, or taking my...