I wish I was dead
I've written this before.
I wish I was dead.
I hate working and feel so envious of those who don't have to.
It's torture.
I beg god every night to let me die in my sleep.
Every morning I wake up to the knowledge that god doesn't care
I wish I could go to sleep and never wake up.
I don't want to face having to live another day.
I have several bottles of Vistaril saved up but don't think it will be enough to kill me. It might tho. I wish I could do it.
I wish I was dead.
I hate working and feel so envious of those who don't have to.
It's torture.
I beg god every night to let me die in my sleep.
Every morning I wake up to the knowledge that god doesn't care
I wish I could go to sleep and never wake up.
I don't want to face having to live another day.
I have several bottles of Vistaril saved up but don't think it will be enough to kill me. It might tho. I wish I could do it.
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WHAT HAPPEND, YOU HAD SUCH HAPPY TIME WHEN YOUR FRIEND CAME, GOT A CAR, IT SOUNDED LIKE ALL WAS GOOD, AND NOW AGAIN,YOU ARE DOWN, \'\'GOD\'\' CARES, AND MAYBE HE WANTS YOU TO ASK FOR HELP TO LIVE NOT DIE, HAVE YOU TOUGHT OF MOVING CLOSE TO YOUR FRIEND, IS THAT AN OPTION, WHEN YOU TALK OF \'\'\'GOD\'\' , I WONDER IF YOU HAVE READ THE SCRIPTURES, FOUND WHAT COULD HELP YOU, I AM SO SORRY YOU ARE SUFFERING SO MUCH, BUT LIFE IS WORTH LIVING, LOVING HUGS L***
Hello. Like JOYHOLY; I also wonder if you need some Prayer. and you do you think maybe you need to ask for help. I don\'t know you but I know you are worth it! and you r worth fighting your difficulties! I am sorry you have to work. I know I use to for years. always angry because I knew I should not have had to work. so I finally got on SSDI-disability. (should have ten years) ago. I keeping you in my thoughts and my prayers, friend. You take care.
((HUGS)) --gizzzy
I will keep u in my prayers That God helps you see its worth liveing I know its sooo hard at times ...belive me I do. But u need to try and stay strong and fight off the devil ok please know I\'m here if u ever wanna talk please know that Im just a message away hugs I will keep u in my prayers.