Screaming
I feel like I'm screaming on the inside. I hate my life so badly.
I wish it was over, I hate everything about it. I can't keep working
and I can't be homeless. I have no one to care for me. I've been
through so much hell all I have are bad memories. I hate god for
putting me and so many others through this horror called life. I
hate that so many people are luckier than I am. I am full of hate
and anger and want to weep till my eyes fall out. But meds keep
me outwardly calm, while all the time I am Screaming inside.
I wish it was over, I hate everything about it. I can't keep working
and I can't be homeless. I have no one to care for me. I've been
through so much hell all I have are bad memories. I hate god for
putting me and so many others through this horror called life. I
hate that so many people are luckier than I am. I am full of hate
and anger and want to weep till my eyes fall out. But meds keep
me outwardly calm, while all the time I am Screaming inside.
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I know exactly how you feel. If we don\'t work, we end up in the streets. Even if we do work, we might not make enough to live. Times are hard and nothing is easy. My heart goes out to you and others. It is hard when a person doesn\'t have anybody to help or be there for them
This must all be very scary for you. I would be reaching out to all the services available in your area. ER housing, Salvation Army and such places. Even if they can\'t help you perhaps they could give some other options to think about that you aren\'t aware of. It is in your best interest to start calling these places. And in doing so you may gain some friends you didn\'t know you had. Good luck to you! I wish you the best.
I am so sorry this is happening to you. I feel a lot of pain in my heart and feel very sad.
my user name may sound lucky but i\'m far from it when it comes to this disease i hear you my friend i have been alone many for years among many people bumping shoulders no one knows no one understands but a couple days ago i told my wife that when i went down this time i would not come out the other side i needed someone you need someone find that person doesn\'t have to be the wife just someone who cares listens has compassion they are out there i didn\'t know that until it was almost too late thank God try to find someone I hope you find peace
Please know that I care. I miss chatting with you. I am a great listener( most of the time). lol There is help available. I could help you research social programs and church charities. Hang on. If you want to talk on the phone, just give me your number. You are in my prayers.
Heather