Stay stong hunni - its only a couple of days!

Thanks! They are all gone now. I put myself in such denial while they are here so I'm alittle concerned for the down time to follow! Hanging on!

Hi Jessica

There doesn't always have to be a specific reason..maybe it really is everything and the whole stress package that they bring.

I think really focus on trying to get some me time to recharge yourself. Also, delegate as many tasks as you can...maybe even suggest they take a walk somewhere whilst you prepare dinner/other task

Remember, they are guests not babies..they don't need your constant attention no matte rhow much they may cry for it.

Do you have a crisis support plan? Do you have a friend who could buddy up with you for their visit?

I think you will do just fine but i know why their visit is making you anxious. If you feel yourself get overwhelmed, pop to the bathroom and try some deep breathing exercises to bring your heart rate down and generally calm yourself.

I hope it all goes smoothly as possible for you

oh..that makes my advice moot ;)

Glad they are gone and that you are hanging on. You are doing amazingly :)

Well, the company all left and I find myself very uncomfortale in the dead silence. I will never understand my inability to cope in any situation lately. I complain when I'm too busy and my life seems interrupted . Then when life halts and chaos ceases I become so fearful in my aloneness. I simply can not find peace right now. I know I had it before the family came. It's amzing how horrifying my self worth becomes and so absolete once the stampeed of family runs their course through the brief moments in life leaving a dusty road of havoc behind. Hello! Am I making any sense? Why am I hating my life right now? I know they really appreciated my hosptality but some how I'm left with an irrated spirit. It's like dealing with the death of a loved one and everyone seems to be available, but once they leave you you're left with a huge heart ache and nobody really cares any more. I feel like the child that was left behind. Used and abused then left alone to my own vises. Not to mention I have tramendous physical pain. Body memories along with screeming bones as if I was beaten near to death. Oh God I want to hurt myself right now. Not good! How did I end up here? So, predictable...one step forward and two steps back. Step back however, has a calus grip that pulls you back like a bow and arrow before the arrow is released. Not knowing exactly where I'll end up. Days like this I want not experience. I am sad and for once in my life I wish I had a night a shining armour to rescue me from my depravity! I know...the Lord is there for me. Sometimes I resent how needy I am. Anyway. I could continue with my pitty prty till I become dangerously disfunctional. I better go now.