JessicaChase

I am up here and it's 4:20 am. I could not go back to sleep. I was working on an issue that came up in therapy yesterday. Something that has been barried for so long. I don't think my mind knows how...

Times like this I wish funny things would happen around me so, I can get out of the rut. Any one have a good joke?Anyway, my friends I spent a couple of days feeling sorrow, fearful and self loathing...

I am having a difficult time right now. the past issue with my sister's visit I'm still trying to work through. Now, I'm anxious about my daughter coming to the states to visit. She'll be visiting my...

I am really tired toight, but I need to praise God for friends! Faces I may never see, but hearts that have united. It's a wonder...love and kindness, goes a long way and needs no other reason than...

Today is the day that God gave me an amazing gift. My daughter Natascha. Last time I journaled about my children was after a painful journal about them and then by surprise  flowers showed up the...

Did I happen to mension that my psychiatrist said this place that I'm at could get more complicated as the progression continues. Now, I am understanding it. I'm exhausted today from the continuous...

WOW! I am amazed at what is going on in my head! I actually did disapear for a while. When I was gone we were switching so much that it got confusing. It's like we all started to blend together. Now...

We are dragging feet today. Can't do much. We are ok if we do not let Nancy show up. However, i am here and I feel like sh-t! Wow I'm so tired and know I need to change. I'm not sure how to do that....

We made a big mistake tonight. However, we did not resist temptation at all. Jessy has gone missing again. She has not dealt with the situation with her sister this weekend. She has not been very...

I was a mess! I was switching, suffering with body memories and flash backs, Re-living a lot of my past all which progressively got worse since Sunday. I did not think I would get through it all...

I am not sure what is going on with me, but I feel so sad. There were a few things that occured here while my sister was visiting that really disterbed me. It has triggered so much crap. Seriously if...

Well, the company all left and I find myself very uncomfortale in the dead silence. I will never understand my inability to cope in any situation lately. I complain when I'm too busy and my life...

Company is still here. Everyone actually are very nice and tollerable, but I am exhausted and having trouble staying present.

I am having a full house this weekend. My sister who know's it all, my brother-in-law who judges all, my niece who the world revolves around, and her husband who lives in his own Christian bubble and...

I posted a comment on my sons face book thanking him for serving our country and if his father was alive he would have been so proud of him. It was the first time he commented on my post. It was a...