JessicaChase

Today is the anniversary of my first suicide attempted. I was living over seas and could no longer cope with the horrific sexual abuse memories from my childhood. My husband admitted me to the...

I'm tired of this thing called life. I want out of my head...DID, flash backs memories I'm so done. I did my job raised my kids to adulthood. Can I leave this earth now God. I  have lost all desire...

I stabbed myself last night. I feel like I will never over come the cutting and stabbing. I feel empty and hopeless!

I'm sad. I miss my grown children. My baby just enlisted and left for the Army. I'm proud of both my children and the choices they have made in life, but now I have to deal with me...all of us alone....

After getting back from seeing my son at his in laws for christmas part of me realizes that he still needs me even though his words were total opposite. And the rest of me wants to stick around to...

I cant sleep! My mind is running fast. I took some meds to calm me just waiting for them to take effect. I also do not feel well. Cant breathe out of my nose and my body is shaking.Weird symptoms...

Well since I've come down from the stress of working and going back on Geodon I'm feeling a littlebetter. I'm very nervous seeing my son this week end. You guys have been so great with hugs and...

We have to embrace those few moment of joy that flutter through our lives. Though not too often do we get freedom from the chains that bind our hearts and minds but those moments come you just want...

The store is so busy That they have me working alot. I'm so tired! but when I'm not there my heavy heart returns. some times it's even there with me at work. :(

I found a job thanks to my old bosses good reference. I start on monday. I am so scared I'm freaking out with panic attacks. I hope I can servive this. I just do not want have a panic attack at the...

I found out the other day that my long term disability benefits will end in Dec.OMG what to do? Even though I am not recomended to work yet I have to. So, I found a job today. t's a pretty simple job...

It is really sad that the only thing keeping me from ending my life is the effect it will have on my two grown adults. I know they still need their mom. They lost their father when they were just...

It just came to my realization that I am those other personalities sharing this body. I am so angry and overwhelmed because all their abuses are actually mine. We are all in shock and have no idea...

I can not do this anymore. This life is not woth living anymore. All I have is fear, anger loneliness. Nobody really cares everyone has their own issues to deal with. I have been calling out to Jesus...

Some times at night I wake up and can't go back to sleep. I like that the world is slower and nobody interrupts me. But now I am getting sleepy. So, to all my faithful friends hang in there you are...