time capsule

Did I happen to mension that my psychiatrist said this place that I'm at could get more complicated as the progression continues. Now, I am understanding it. I'm exhausted today from the continuous switching. I have to confessed it was getting unbearable today. Yeserday I experienced the characteristics that were an asset to all of us. Unfortunately, today I am experiencing some of their pain. I couldn't deal with it any more. So, I took a couple of shots of vodca today. Not good. I know. I feel defeated. I'm hoping that journaling through it will help me before I act out any more tonight.  This is so damn frustrating! I do not even know who is writing this. I am trying to remind myself that going through the healing process is not easy and it could take time and perseverence in the faith of God's provision, but often times I do not think of that till after the fact of acting out. Does anyone want to trade heads for a while?