Thank God for therapists!

I was a mess! I was switching, suffering with body memories and flash backs, Re-living a lot of my past all which progressively got worse since Sunday. I did not think I would get through it all without cutting. "Help" was all I could pray. Some how procesing it today managed to get me back to the present. I do not remember most of our session. My therapist said I switched about 5 times and all of them had their own fears expressed from this whole weekend. We have concluded that I should not be so hospitable to my family next time they are in town.
I feel better now. As the day progressed I started to feel better. However, I can not believe how physically exhausted I am! I feel like i've been through a train reck. I hope I can sleep without nightmares again. I'm so tired!

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stevebhopes
stevebhopes

My dear friend it grieves me to hear that you have been suffering so badly. I am glad you feel better now. You are one brave lady to face all that you do and not give up.
stephanietram
stephanietram

sounds like a plan. I had to pull back from so many things during last summer when I was newly dealing with this. It helped to lighten the load. We now refer to the day after therapy as \"Therapy Hang-over Day\" and make a light schedule for that time on purpose. Glad you are back to the present and getting your bearings again.
JessicaChase
JessicaChase

Once gain...it\'s nice to know I\'m not alone in this! Love you two...Have a blessed day!
Jessy
deleted_user
deleted_user

Jessica, wow this journal entry sounds like a page from my diary this week! I\'m so relieved I\'m not the only one going through these feelings and experiences. Thank you for putting this out there for everyone to read and feel better too.
seemad
seemad

I hope you are feeling better now...yes switching can be so exhausting...just experienced one last night...so I totally get it...
thxs for sharing..