still not feeling over great, moods still suck, energy sucks, everything pretty much sucks.  I did vent a bit to my ex....told him in an email as pleasantly as possible how I felt.  Only told him because we will always know each other and our paths will continuously cross.  It did help to let him know my side of things...the rage and recentment has eased off a bit.  I still have a feeling that hospital stay is not far in my future but *shrugs*...I will deal with that when and if the time comes.