I'm happy to say that overall things are going better.  My energy level is coming back fairly quick.  My interest in things is coming back, and my appetite is coming back...although I'd kinda like that one to stay down a little long.  LOL.  I even took the bus today and spent time with all my family all day without any problems.  The only problem I had today was getting a little emotional at supper time when we were eating out.  I don't know why but when the restaraunt staff started singing happy birthday to one of the people there I started tearing up.  Not sure if I was happy or sad.  I don't usually get teary over stuff like that.   The other problem I'm having is with my thought process.  I keep thinking I want to OD and cut.  I don't know why I"m getting those thought, my moods are better...and as I said above everything else is normalizing.  So why do I have these thoughts?  Even more...how do I make them stop?