Lola694

As tom petty says, for all of you who know his music, the waiting is the hardest part.like one of my friends on here said to me, its not great until you get it in your hands.  i feel such a need to...

hi to all my friends.I hope everyone is having a peaceful day.  im in a rut and feeling like shite again.  another damn med adjustment making me crazy.just waiting for my self-med stuff to come...

wow! another tough one today. managed to go with my hubby to his doctors appt. today.  i remember a friend of mine on here said that she felt like the smallest little things felt like a huge...

I need to step out of life for a while.  no, im not talking about offing myself altho some days that sounds like a great option.  ive had enuf and need to step out of life for a while. Peace and...

feeling pretty miserable today but no self meds.unless you include my breakfast of champions.  cigarettes, java, klonies, and a big rolled up spliff. have to talk to shrink tomorrow about increasing...

no self med for lola today.  did not need it as much as yesterday but i still have my spliff and my klonies to take if and when i need them.  Im still feeling like horse shite tho and im getting...

due to some self-medication, and im not proud to say so, i feel slightly better right now.  not wonderful but some of my emotional pain has gone away.I refused to drink tho to self medicate so what...

anothere dreaded day here in the life of me.  what a drag this illness is.  gotta continually wait and wait for the cocktail to kick in...im tired of waiting.  im soooo mentally exhausted right...

nothin more to say a few hours later but oh shit...its not susiding and im hating life to intensely right now.  Nothing but shiity vibes being sent my way.BOOOOOO  HOOOOOOOOO.  crying as i write...

the only way that i candescribe how i feel today is just like complete shit.  When i told my mom this she said (of course to try to make me laugh)  i was hoping you'd say you just felt like partial...

Hey there my friends~  I wanted to write this journal entry because i am very proud to say that I have not had an alcoholic beverage in 22 months by midnight tonite.  Dont plan on sucking down a...

had to change my ok face back to bad again b/c of thif f-in illness that is so difficult to deal with.  it's such a tease when your meds start to work, then 3 days later you are down again.  it's...

changed my bad to ok which was a positive thing for me today.  just wanted to let everyone know that i think all of you continue to rock and rule and i continue to love your support.  my med...

I guess iwas just being sensitive cuz when i checked back to my last journal entry, there were comments made so i made a mistake, i take it back and thanks for all your journal comments.Lola***

I havent posted a jornal entry in months.  Partially b/c i feel nobody really read them or makes any comments about it.  It could be just the "sensitive" space i am in emotionally right now i...