Lola694

The next time i park in a spot that is marked for people who are handicapped and a police officer begins to write me a ticket for no handicapped plate,I will say..."I am hanicapped,i'm PSYCHOTIC!!!"

Wow!!!Today I am actually better than nothing.....

Better today but,not to be negative, it's probably just a fleeting feeling.Just as i start to feel ok, i come crashing down once again.Cant look forward to much of anything these days b/c of this...

Today is hubby's birthday.i feel as though i really have to strain myself to be happy for this occassion. might have to self-med again today but at this point,as long as it's not with booze,i really...

I guess I'll write another JE even tho no comments were made on the last one.kinda sad about it but how can i possibly have comments made when i have been on here sooo inconsistently as of late.Today...

first day i have felt somewhat "normal" in about 8 months..i refuse to jinx myself so I'll TRY to live for the moment and enjoy the time i have right now.really, what else is there??????

just when i thought i was getting better, here goes the slump again.my p doc did increase the wellbutrin but i havent felt the effects yet.it's always keep waiting...and waiting...and waiting...oh...

yesterday was my birthday and i stayed completely sober.had an opportunity to self med with percs,coke, and of course my favorite,alcohol but I didnt drink one drop and am proud b/c of it.  Still...

Wow!today is my b-day.i just turned 39.it has been a good day so far and am feeling well for a BIG change.Thanks to all of my friends here at DS.  it is so helpful for me to be here whether i am...

Feeling just like yesterday...decided to go thru with it and boost my meds(wellbutrin) up 75 more mgs.My best friend had a script for 75 mgs and gave it to me.Had to self-medicate again with those...

Once again,just as I start to feel better on this fuckin med "cocktail", here it goes again.My P doc added 200 mgs of wellbutrin to my already mixed cocktail.I think I might just bump myself up to...

over the past two weeks, i have only felt bad 5 of the 14 days.that means 9 out of 14 i felt good.What a change for me.maybe this wellbutrin that my doc added to my med coctail is actually working.i...

Just when i thought i was able to run with the horses and ride that beautiful wave, here i go getting depressed again.  The hope that i still have is that I believe this time my Pdoc. may be on the...

Nothing more to say than what i said yesterday....

The past two days i have actually felt alive and well.it scares the shit out of me at the same time because there have been a few days at a time ive felt ok to good and then I come crashing down.Have...