As tom petty says, for all of you who know his music, the waiting is the hardest part.like one of my friends on here said to me, its not great until you get it in your hands.  i feel such a need to blast my brains out, get really "zooted" on some white lines to match the snow outside my house.LOL. when i say im gonna blast my brains out, only a figure of speech with the drugs so to speak.  ya know whn someone says to you, Are you ready to do another blast?'  usually i say of course i am but there have been times when ive said lets wait for a bit.  when my hubby and i do lines together we have such a blast it seems to bring us closer.  it gives me a "spark" so to speak and im usually pretty much "numb" from the waist down due to some of the meds i have to take.  he is very competitive and i am not but we try sooo hard to open up a can of whoop ass on each other when we play scrabble and backgammon.  cards sometimes too. nothing to comples sometimes 5 card poker but mostly just crazy 8's kinda like uno to keep it simple for us. he always manages to keep score very well b/c he is so great with numbers and i am not.  not usually until i do the white stuff and then have to add up my points on the scrabble borad for my score and im like a math whiz when usually im soooo slow with math skills.  anyway, the waiting, like i said is the hardest part.  just talking about it makes me want it more so maybe i should stop now...paz y amor to all my friends and anyone else who gives a shite...Lola***