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Instead of beans to help "cure" my depression for the day, I resorted to some nice white lines that I had "leftover" from another nite.  no wonder the stuff is so addictive.  cures the depression...

The dreaded bipolar has reared its' ugly head once again and I can't take it anymore.  Hubby saved two double beans for me today.  He told me they were for emergency purposes, like today!!!  What...

Here it goes with my beans yesterday.  Had none to take today so I've been in complete misery.  I do, however, have a little coke left from the last time and it would make the misery disappear as...

Had no beans for three days and i'm proud.  it's because my meds are starting to work and I have no need for them.  can't wait to tell my P doc about it!!!  Changed my face up here to ok instead...

Had to go and do the coke that I've been waiting for.  What sweet relief the stuff provides.  that's why it's so damn addictive!!!

Continuing to feel really low down, continuing to take percocet (my "beans"), continuing to wait for more sweet drug relief.  wow what a mess I am!!!

continuing to take percs every time I feel low down.  still waiting on other drugs for myself these days which is not a good thing for me!!!

happy new year to my friends.  stayed completely sober in every way this new years much to my surprise!!

Haapy holiday season to everyone who reads this.  haven't used any substances in a while but i plan to on new year's eve.  HELP!!!

Finally found some stability with my meds and i have not used any really bad substances in a while.  yay for me!!!

Still ' jacked up' now as i have been for the last 2 days.  sweet relief needed.

It's just amazing what the stuff does for ya.  No wonder why it'sSO addictive.

I should probably be up for the next day or so, feeling VERY good but then......I'm scared to think about how I'm gonna feel when it wares off. shit!!!Oh well, that won't stop me!!!

Wow, I get to have more of the fine package tonight !!!