hi to all my friends.I hope everyone is having a peaceful day.  im in a rut and feeling like shite again.  another damn med adjustment making me crazy.just waiting for my self-med stuff to come thru.  i hope it does but ill only be slightly bummed if it doesnt b/c i am not an addict with the stuff. what relief it will provide me either tonight or tomorrow night.  with the recent wallop of snow that hit Boston, Ma where i live, it will be nice to have some of the other kind of snow to go with it.  were supposed to get another big storm sat nite into sunday so prob. sat nite would be the best choice of nights for me to do this.  please hope for me, even tho its not the best choice, that my gift comes thru to me.  yes as i stated b4, desperate times call for desperate measures and this is definitely bad desperate times for me.I wont feel guilty after i do it, i just might get evn more down but im already low so wtf right.  paz y amor to all.Lola***