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here i go, craving the white powdery sustance again.  i gotta fight this demon.  i did it with alcohol, so far any way, I gotta be able to get a hold of myself here.  my perc habit has not been...

It's not enough that i have been feeling stable for about 3 months now.  i had to go and purchase a "package".  i know there are those who know what I'm talking about.  im feeling kinda bad and...

       It's been exactily one month today and I haven't had a cigarette !!!  It's been two years and seven months since I've had a drink !!! Now I gotta work on not smoking the weed and...

Even tho it's that time of the month, which usually makes me depressed as a mamma jamma,  I actually feel good today with only a slight feeling of being down.this is the first time i can say that...

I'm just feeling very scared but very happy at the same time.  It's scary for me to be feeling well b/c as soon as i start to get well, boom i come crashing down again.  That's all!!!

Life is FINALLY getting under way for me!!My mads are keeping me more even keel and I just celebrated 2 years and & months of sobriety.  I'm sober, at least alcoholically so.  maybe i should just...

Well, its been a while since ive written anything.  My med cocktail works occasionally.  I think my p doc has to tweak it once again.  it's been over a year and 8 moths that ive felt good for 10...

down down down once again today.  i thought this new med was supposed to be helping me.  What the fuck is going on???  i am beyond frustrated today and not sure what to do next.  My Pdoc told me...

Another stinkin med adjsutment b/c my med levels in my blood are low.  I've felt down all day and H has done nothing but make my life more miserable today.   Do I even care?

Just when I thought my meds were really starting to work, boom... another increase needs to be made and in the meantime, I'm feeling like shit again.  H has been telling me that he gets exhausted...

Good thing for the invention of the Air-conditioner b/c 2 day is hot!!!!!!!I had to throw my Boston accent,which I dont really have, into the title of my JE today just for kicks.I know parts of other...

Feeling better today but don't want to be under the illusion that this new med is working for me. I can't help but truly belive this may be it this time. I said it so many times in the past that i...

really yucky yesterday but back to ok again today.

This makes it 5 days in a row that i have been feeling well.pretty amazing and interesting to me at the same time.Didnt know my new med was supposed to work this fast.less than one week of...

well....today,so far, is another good one!could THIS med ''cocktail" be the one that works for me FINALLY?  I sure hope so and I'm still hanging onto hope!!! I have to go to court today for a...