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Oh boy!!!Here it goes again just munching down those percs today b/c it's the only thing that kills my emotional pain until my freakin meds are straightened out.  The other thing that has been hard...

Doing poorly again, craving the white powdery stuff and munching percocet like crazy.  things are miserable for me so far this year!!!

Continually craving the white powdery stuff and munching down beans (percocet) every damn day.  this shit has got to stop!!!

Craving the white stuff again and munching downs beans (percs) like they are going out of style!!!Care to comment anyone???Please do!!!  Luv ya!!!

here i go again with plans to get some of the white stuff AGAIN.  The perc habit is starting to get out of control and i am having a really hard time right now.  Even thinking about JUMPING off...

here i go, craving the white powdery sustance again.  i gotta fight this demon.  i did it with alcohol, so far any way, I gotta be able to get a hold of myself here.  my perc habit has not been...

It's not enough that i have been feeling stable for about 3 months now.  i had to go and purchase a "package".  i know there are those who know what I'm talking about.  im feeling kinda bad and...

       It's been exactily one month today and I haven't had a cigarette !!!  It's been two years and seven months since I've had a drink !!! Now I gotta work on not smoking the weed and...

Even tho it's that time of the month, which usually makes me depressed as a mamma jamma,  I actually feel good today with only a slight feeling of being down.this is the first time i can say that...

I'm just feeling very scared but very happy at the same time.  It's scary for me to be feeling well b/c as soon as i start to get well, boom i come crashing down again.  That's all!!!

Life is FINALLY getting under way for me!!My mads are keeping me more even keel and I just celebrated 2 years and & months of sobriety.  I'm sober, at least alcoholically so.  maybe i should just...

Well, its been a while since ive written anything.  My med cocktail works occasionally.  I think my p doc has to tweak it once again.  it's been over a year and 8 moths that ive felt good for 10...

down down down once again today.  i thought this new med was supposed to be helping me.  What the fuck is going on???  i am beyond frustrated today and not sure what to do next.  My Pdoc told me...

Another stinkin med adjsutment b/c my med levels in my blood are low.  I've felt down all day and H has done nothing but make my life more miserable today.   Do I even care?

Just when I thought my meds were really starting to work, boom... another increase needs to be made and in the meantime, I'm feeling like shit again.  H has been telling me that he gets exhausted...