DianeMTB

I can't sleep.  I am thinking of many things in my head.  I miss Smokey.  I am so lonely without him.  We did everything together and we were each other's best friends.  It is 12:11 a.m. and I...

I'm lonely without my dear sweet Smokey.  We were each other's best friends, lovers and companions as we did everything together as a couple.  It's the major reason there is a huge hole in my...

I am beginning to realize why Ii am finding Smokey's death so very hard.  It was that I was not really accepting it and probably was trying to deny it in my heart.  Alas, reality bites.  The...

It's seems as if I will be grieving for my husband forever.  Do we ever heal?  I have no answers for the question.  Today the crying started in the morning, had a break and am crying still in the...

I am so lonely without Smokey.  He was my life.  We did everything together.  Watching TV we would laugh at something on it or we would make fun of something we are watching.  It is not the same...

It's been just over 4 months now since my Smokey passed away.  I am not ready for anyone new.  I feel bad though because yesterday my friend Carol and I went to a bar close to home.  I don't know...

Why does mourning with anger always happen to me and I take it out on my older brother Don?  He was over for a short visit.  With his Asperger's Syndrome Don doesn't really listen to people.  I...

It has been 4 months since I lost my beloved love of my life Smokey.  The last couple nights, I have not slept very well.  Last night I went to bed at 11 p.m. and finally managed to fall asleep at...

The best thing you can do at this point in time is allow yourself to grieve and mourn no matter how long it takes.  This is very important.  If you don't allow yourself to grieve, it will take a...

It is funny how grief can rob us of our minds, any logical thinking, proper thoughts, and intensifies our feelings 100% or more.  There are times when I think I am going crazy by all these things. ...

The grief will it ever end as it seems to keep going on and on and on.  It is the little things that keep it going.  I went to perfume on yesterday.  I only have 3 small bottle left.  I was...

I cant' deal with my brother who has Aspergers.  Help.  Yesterday we were out for dinner with my brother Don and his friend Blair.  He kept going on and on about all the abuse he suffered from our...

I am at my wits end with my brother who has Asperger's Syndrome.  He keeps talking about my belated husband and is trash talking.  He keeps talking a million times about all the abuse he suffered...

It's the smallest things that Smokey did that make me cry because I miss him so much.  Every other Christmas Smokey would buy me expensive perfume.  I have 3 little bottles left on my shelf.  I...

My life sucks without Smokey.  I was a very lucky lady.  Smokey and I discussed this a lot and thought it was time for me to quit my job in 2008.  Smokey died Nov. 15, 2009.  The timing, if there...