Lonely without Smokey

I am so lonely without Smokey.  He was my life.  We did everything together.  Watching TV we would laugh at something on it or we would make fun of something we are watching.  It is not the same without him.  We would bargain shop for the best deal on food.  We would go to 2 - 3 different places:  one for the produce, one for the major food and one for meat.   Even if we wanted to get a piece of furniture, we woudl keep our eyes on at certain stores and wait to see if it would go on sale.  It eventually did.  It all depended on how badly we need it or not.   It just is not the same without Smokey.  I don't drive so I go to one store for all my food needs.  I have a girlfriend to go out with my personal needs like clothes and things.  It is a lot more fun shopping with a friend than my yourself.  Smokey was generous and a giving person.  I still live in the one-bedroom apartment but it is so lonely with Smokey.  My heart absolutely aches for Smokey.  On one side, I feel wrapped by his love living in the apartment.  On the other hand, it feels lonely without him beside me.  I loved him so very much.  He lives a big huge hole in my heart that is for sure.