waywardalchemist

was doing pretty fucking good for a minute.  had two months of not drinking this time around then two or three weeks ago i had a binge.  and now this week another binge.  i now fully accept that i...

So, the Israeli guy that I was really, really into........turns out he got back with his ex, who, just from the two times I met him, could tell that he really loved, just by passing comments he...

so yesterday marked one month of sobriety.  i was feeling great and had two days off from work and just got paid.  i had been borrowing my friend's Osho tarot deck for a few months prior and had...

So today marks one month sober.  I am feeling really solid in my willpower and decision not to drink.  I am really grateful to have gotten my online teaching job back and worked a lot this month...

So, I had a really weird and unexpected experience last night.  I have an instagram account that I started about a year ago where I post pics that I take here in Thailand, some of myself but mostly...

so last night i pushed myself out of my comfort zone.  i went sober on a tinder date.  i've only meet up with boys i've met on tinder a handful of times, and each time i drank to varying degrees,...

So yes, I'm on here to write that I drank this weekend.  I drank friday night and drank all day Saturday.  Nothing terrible happened, nothing lost, didn't fuck up anything too bad.  I did have...

I have to remember that everyday I don't drink is a victory.  and also, just be grateful always for my life.  I am pretty good at not getting caught up in the rat race these days or keeping up with...

So when I wake up in the morning I always pull out my cell phone and scroll through my facebook feed and instagram.  Lo and behold first thing I open up to is my friend's post about how she just...

feeling so much better.  life is so funny.  all of these emotions, predicaments and thoughts.  i have a renewed resolve to get my shit done and resist procrastination.  i just need to be clear...

yesterday was really hard, the first part.  i basically white knuckled it to get through my cravings for alcohol.  i didn't work in the evening and also didn't work this morning so it seemed very...

Man, really felt shitty this whole week.  Some kind of creeping depression.  I feel a lot better right now because I layed down and napped briefly and then woke up and cleaned my house more.  I...

I just feel like I have already died, not necessarily in a terrible way.  More like how monks and buddhism say that all of life and attachment is suffering, so you have to become unattached to be...

Something needs to change in my life.  I feel so powerless these days.  I drank yesterday.  I was goign to get two tattoos and I told myself that I would drink a beer to get a buzz and get in the...

Well, i drank two different nights in the past week.  both nights i didn't get too fucked up nor lose anything or screw anything up nor wake up in the morning and drink.  overall, i wish i hadn't...