Journal to Motivate

Man, really felt shitty this whole week.  Some kind of creeping depression.  I feel a lot better right now because I layed down and napped briefly and then woke up and cleaned my house more.  I then did my tarot cards, and out of all the cards, I got three repeat cards that I pulled last reading.  About, healing-guidance-flowering.  anyway, i just want to focus on what i'm proud of about myself, and also accept that the low points in life should't weigh on me so heavily.   life is a journey, with hills and valleys, crests and wakes!  just how it goes.   and i just need to believe in myself and keep working toward my goals.  at this point, i'm happy that i exercise everyday and eat vegan and have been living in another country for a year and a half.  i have worked many different jobs and traveled many different places.  i have a cool house and a cat that i love.  i have many interests and a lot of curiousity within me.  i am happy for all of these things.

i am going to go on a hike now.  i ate a lot of thai food yesterday and today--pad thai, koi soi, papaya salad....and these yummy steamed littel rice cookie things this morning.  yum.  but now i feel full of food because usually i eat my salads and not so much rice and noodles. so i'm gonna go sweat some and i will feel much better for this.  ok, plleeeassseeee let this melancholy shit lift.  i know i just need more connection in my life around here.....ok ok on i go.