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Today was a shitty day at first but slowly it got better and better. Specially when I realized that I can do this and that I'll keep on fighting no matter what. I just have to keep calm, focus, and...

Today was kind of good. Things went well but I have so much to do. My brother told me about this friend of his who is able to take things easy. I wish I was more like that, instead, everything freaks...

Today was fine. I'm a little disappointed because I couldn't do everything I had planned but I didn't waste that much time so I guess that makes me feel better. From time to time sex thoughts come...

Today I wasted so much time. My brother keeps teasing me about how I always fail when I try some discipline in my life. It's true, I'm a mess but I can't give up. Step bu step I have to find a way to...

So, today was a a pretty busy day. I went up and down, I was so tired. Then I went out with F.I sure like her but I'm still not that into her. She, on the other hand, sometimes keeps talking about...

I know it's been only nine days but it feels like so much longer. I'm starting to think more and more about beauty and sex. I dreamed of my ex girlfriend and how I tried so hard to make her fall in...

Today was fine mostly. I still have issues with pretty girls. Today, a pretty friend talked to me and for a minute I didn't know what to say. She probably noticed it was because of her looks. I wish...

Today it was a good day. I still have trouble when looking at beautiful girls, it is like this urge to look at them. I want to be able to tell that they look good and let them be. Looks are not a big...

I'm worried because of F. I'm still not sure about her, sometimes I feel this is going somewhere, sometimes I feel this is going nowhere. I tried to be nice today, I texted her something in the...

Today was pretty good. i went out with F and finally kissed her. I'm pretty scared though. I do like her, I enjoy her company, she is a good kisser but I'm not ok at all. I'm still struggling against...

Today I was thrilled about going to the movies with F. I really like her but sometimes I don't feel attracted to her. I hate how my head works, I'm obsessed with beauty. I always focus on physical...

Today was a good day I think. I saw the magic video girl and I felt a little jealous but that was it. I'm trying to avoid wasting time but sometimes I can't help it. I don't like this because when I...

Today was a little better, except for one thing, I saw something a girl I like posted on facebook. It was a song or her boyfriend, Magic by Coldplay. What a beautiful song, really. I've never been in...

So, I masturbated twice today. I'm sick of all this, I just want to be normal. I realized that I need to use all that I have learned so far in order to defeat this monster.- There is no curiosity,...