Day 14
Today was a shitty day at first but slowly it got better and better. Specially when I realized that I can do this and that I'll keep on fighting no matter what. I just have to keep calm, focus, and do my best.
I told F that it is better to be careful about love. She was very nice and told me that she understands my feelings. She is great indeed. I just hope that she doesn't think that I'm playing with her.
I still did too little tonight. It is alright to have a girlfriend and spend time chatting with her but I have to find a way to avoid facebook and stop wasting so much time. I have lots of things to do and I can't waste more time
Facebook is bad for me. I still have a weakness about women. I was thinking of T because I find her cute and I used to like her a lot, probably I still feel some attraction to her. I also couldn't help to check C's profile picture. She looked beautiful, and deep inside I hoped that things with her boyfriend aren't working out. A part of me still loves her and wishes she'd come back. I know it's impossible, and also I'm doing great with F, even if C came back, it would be stupid to leave F. It's just that it's hard to forget how amazing it was when I was with her. That sucks because it means I'm still not over her. C also reminds me of sex, which has several times led me to porn. I'd better stop thinking of her.
Today I did not masturbate
I told F that it is better to be careful about love. She was very nice and told me that she understands my feelings. She is great indeed. I just hope that she doesn't think that I'm playing with her.
I still did too little tonight. It is alright to have a girlfriend and spend time chatting with her but I have to find a way to avoid facebook and stop wasting so much time. I have lots of things to do and I can't waste more time
Facebook is bad for me. I still have a weakness about women. I was thinking of T because I find her cute and I used to like her a lot, probably I still feel some attraction to her. I also couldn't help to check C's profile picture. She looked beautiful, and deep inside I hoped that things with her boyfriend aren't working out. A part of me still loves her and wishes she'd come back. I know it's impossible, and also I'm doing great with F, even if C came back, it would be stupid to leave F. It's just that it's hard to forget how amazing it was when I was with her. That sucks because it means I'm still not over her. C also reminds me of sex, which has several times led me to porn. I'd better stop thinking of her.
Today I did not masturbate
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