Day 6

I'm worried because of F. I'm still not sure about her, sometimes I feel this is going somewhere, sometimes I feel this is going nowhere. I tried to be nice today, I texted her something in the morning but she didn't answer. I don't know what happened but I hope everything is ok. See, I feel sad and worried because I don't want that things go wrong between us but I also feel kind of relieved because I don't really know where all this with F is going. 
I couldn't help looking at girls all day. In my university there are few girls but some of them are really pretty. I try not to but my eyes keep moving in their direction. I know that beauty is just a wrapping and that it means nothing but my mind likes the wrapping. I hate that, I do believe that people are more than just looks. I'll keep working on that. 
 
I wonder about F, I wish I could be the guy she deserves. Maybe I'm over thinking, maybe I just need to let time do the talking. 
 
I didn't masturbate today.