Day 13

Today was kind of good. Things went well but I have so much to do. My brother told me about this friend of his who is able to take things easy. I wish I was more like that, instead, everything freaks me out. Like today I fell asleep on my way back home in front of some people who take the bus with me. A pretty girl was sitting next to me but when I woke up, she was sitting uncomfortably with her friend. I said good bye when I got down but no one answered. So this idea came to me, maybe I farted while I was sleeping , it may have happened but who cares. Still, That idea kept bugging me all day, it was awful.
I keep flirting with F. I like flirting, but I really hope I'm not making her fall harder for me. It my sound silly and not modest at all but she keeps writing disturbing stuff like: "Our paths came together and you came to my life to conquer my sweetness and my love". If she falls for me, I hope to fall for her.
For some reason I find myself annoying lately, I wish I was strong, confident, serious, and cool but I'm the exact opposite right now. That bothers me so I'm working hard to change that from now on. I can't let my guard down, not now.
 
Today I did not maturbate