Celian

I thought I needed to empty my heart and talk about where am at, and how I am coping with the loss of my dear beloved daughter Sinza. First off, there is definitely a change in the grief...

I went on a weekend holiday to the Islands, and I enjoyed myself! Ofcourse I though of my beautiful angel constantly, how if she were here I wouldn't even be able to go on holiday. But she isn't,...

Just some thoughts I thought I should pen down about year two so far (its only been 5 days!) but I really do feel different. I feel calmer, more accepting, even less sad. I think am getting used to...

I have been a mommy for an entire year! The most difficult, most heartbreaking kind of mummy, and yet we made it to the one year mark! Unbelievable. I thought this day would come with a lot of...

Aren't they lucky? those that can just, you know, think that a change in calender number is all they need to be happy? That everything is just going to change because we now end the year figure with...

I did not forget your eleven months anniversary sweets, I just had one of the worst days since you passed, it has taken me all of this long to get myself together well enough to write this post. I...

Wow, I am really falling behind on my timing. So Sinza made 10 months in November..we are coming to a more and more accepting position..focusing on accepting her fully as she is..and being the best...

I have a workmate, she used to be a friend, she came to the hospital when i was admitted to deliver my stillborn daughter, she also came for her funeral. A few months later, she came for my Dad's...

I am a little late this month, by 5 days. My sweet angel made 9 months last week, she has been dead longer than she was alive. The pain has changed, its now duller, but always always here. In place...

Sinza made eight months three days ago. Ahh, its still very tough, but the difference now is that, somehow, I feel God is with me in my struggle. For the first time in a looong time I don't feel...

Sinza made seven months in heaven yesterday. I may have to come to the conclusion that time doesn't heal, coz the only healing that i can ever get is if my baby is in my arms - there is no...

Today has been extremely tough. This grief is unrelenting, almost six months on and I still cant stand being separated from my baby. The pain is unrelenting, the heartbreak is overwhelming, every...

I haven't journaled in a while now. Mostly because i have reached a point in my grief where I am stuck. I was right in the middle of my grief-work resolving my angle's stillbirth when Wham...death...

My Dad's funeral was on Thursday. It was a honourable send off, very fitting for the man Daddy was. His death is very sad, I would have liked him to live forever. The timing was cruel, 4 months after...

My dad passed away sunday evening, his memorial service is tomorrow and funeral on thursday..I am beyond lost