Begining year two

Just some thoughts I thought I should pen down about year two so far (its only been 5 days!) but I really do feel different. I feel calmer, more accepting, even less sad. I think am getting used to being your mother just the way we are, as opposed to how I thought we would be. I have finally let go of the dream, and embraced the reality. Also spiritually, now that I am done fighting and kicking at God, I feel embraced by Him, and streaks of light are starting to penetrate through my darkness. It may be the two year honeymoon period, or it may be here to last - I honestly hope so. Year one was too dark a time, we both could use some light! Love you baby girl (not the you I wanted you to be, but the real you, you have shown me that you are.) xxx Mommy.