Seven months
Sinza made seven months in heaven yesterday. I may have to come to the conclusion that time doesn't heal, coz the only healing that i can ever get is if my baby is in my arms - there is no substitute. What a hard hard life we have been sentenced to! One of my greatest dilemas is not knowing if my baby misses me too? Part of me wants her to be trouble free, untouched by the contamination of this world, yet I want her to know how much I love and miss her, although I fear that might make her sad?
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Oh Celian, Sinza knows exactly how much you love her and how much you miss her. She\'s with you every day, always. You are her mommy and she knows that. My baby Erin would have been 4 months old yesterday (august 16) and I like to think that she never knew sadness or pain, she only knew love. Our baby\'s know we\'ll never forget them because they\'re always with us. They don\'t want us to be sad. No child wants to see their mommy unhappy. I wish you peace
-Sara
I think our babies know how much we miss them, but I also think that instead of that making them sad I think they must feel bad for us. I\'ve heard people say that grief is for the living, not for the dead. I have to believe that when we pass on to the next world we pass beyond the world of pain and sorrow and become beings that can see the larger picture of life, and instead of regrets and pain we will be able to see how everything in life has meaning.
I\'m sorry that you are going through this alone. I\'m coming up on my angel baby\'s fourth birthday tomorrow, and I am feeling pretty low too. I\'m here if you want to talk honey. *HUGS*