JESSIKAH

im in a blah moood.im here just thinkingjust a bit too muchalot has been going onwith meits almost the 19thomg im scaared for that dayand im dreading the 17th tooits almost been a month:\idk im so...

well im pretty broken right nowno more mimiit really got to me i miss herlike alotive been fighting with the fam bam  latley except for yesterday at my nieces birthday we actually got along.i dont...

hi, well lets see.im still sad somebut hanging inive been going to my program daily which helps me alot i really like itive been making some decisionsabout my future and stuffim going to school...

why do i do stupid shit.somtimes i hate myself.ugh

i was out for a lil bit but now im backi dont live at home anymore  i live at an independent living houseits pretty coooli misss alot of things thoughwell i will write more later

i hate how one day is awesome then the next day is horribe.i feel like i dont fucking matter anymore.nomatter how hard i try its never going to work outi am so fustrated right nowi hate iti hate...

was pretty much awesomeone of the best nites i had in a lil while.i love the question game haha:)but we were so tired this morningshe slept all day and i woke up at 12hahalets do it all over again...

last two days have been shit.im so soar  my whole body hurts yesterday was a dumb day i hated every second of it.why am i fucking here i fucking hate itshit i mise well go back to my fucking dads...

i've been thinking alot lately.well especially last nite.i couldnt stop thinking about mimi.i missed her alot, but i kept telling myself to not care.but i still cared.i hate her mother so goddamn...

so everything blows up in my facei hate everything ugh.i feel like i have absolutley no onei feel like a zombie the last past two days i sleep way too much just to dreami hate  feeling this wayi...

OK  so the past few days have been rough.but i got thru them and mimi got thru them. i've been really down latley. like last nite but somehow i got thru it.i was suppose to go have funnn yesterday...

ok so i wrote my last journal and went to bed.well my mom woke me upbcuz mimi called the housewe talked   and sorted everything outand are now officially back together.it made me super happyi loves...

ok so i wrote my last journal and went to bed.well my mom woke me upbcuz mimi called the housewe talked   and sorted everything outand are now officially back together.it made me super happyi loves...

i need to chill out. i know she loves me she just needs time i jusss miss her alotso ima go to bed today wasnt a good daybut hopefully tomorrow will bewell im out  byeeeess love jessyps. mimi i...

forever? cuz i mean forever when i say i love you . . . . really?…