JESSIKAH

so im going to laredo next weeki am so excited and nervous at the same timewould if she gets madwould if she hates  meugh i am going crazyi just need to make things righti know she has a gf  but i...

somthing is wrong so wrong.i cant even explain my feelings.the love of my life is not talking to me like at all she basically hates me.what did i do for her to hate me.its really getting to me. i had...

im going to mexico today wooootgunna go have funnn wooopi miss my love

she smiles  even though she wants to crylaughs when she wants to scream she remembers everything and wants  to  be freefree from her thoughts free from the torturewishes she could be  back to...

well ive been up and down yesterday like last nite i was super sad i just cryed myself to sleep. even though things are actually going okay. i still feel sad. i just wanted to be held.i didnt have...

today had been a good day so fari told mimi that i was done waiting:]]]]]]]]]i am done im so tired of her treating me like shitdont get me wrong  if anything happend to her i wouldnt be okay  buti...

life sucks atm but im trying to think positivemy family is bipolar one min they love me the next they are assholesi made a good new friend:p shes awesomei miss mimi more than anyone can understandim...

okaiii i officially hate love:\i hate that i love her:\ and she doesnt  even give a flying fucki can die and she wont give a fuckughhhwell i signed up for formspring which is a site where ppl can...

ok so i went to the doctorsummm my blood pressure was high they are thinking of putting me on meds for that.ughi have strep throat:\ it sucks ballshaha  i seen mileigh today it was very archward...

egh im sickima go to the doctors tomorrow and see whats wrongomg yesterday was crazyyyyloli want to go to laredo and just see my babybut i cant cause im lameughschool is boringand im just so  tired...

dooom dooom doooom doooom doooom.well latley i have been pretty badi almost overdosed on seroquel but i stopped my self from taking all the pillsugh.i still feel super sad:\my therapist told me that...

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuckhaha i am the bigest stupid asss in the worldi fucked up my relationship for goodim stupidi could have just waited but i didntbut honestly i never thought she was ever going...

ehso yesterday i did some stupid shit. which lead into me losing a friend:[i called mimi yesterday from a restricted numbershe actually answeredi was shockedwhen she said "hello" my heart dropped it...

i feel so much rite nowim super sadi miss someone

well we put my dog down:[ rip brandyummm amanda and i have been fighting she is prego again!life has been up and down for meim kinda sad right now.i wish i wasnti hate that i really like this girl...