JESSIKAH

so today I got the news that a friend that I went to treatment with killed herself. and I honestly don't know how to feel. I feel sad that she's not here but I know she's happy that she doesn't have...

My life has been a roller coaster. from having surgeries to being on chemo. i lost my hope for a while but im starting to get it back. I went to Ireland in october which was a big risk but it was a...

Not sure if anyone even reads my stuff anymore but just in case here is my update. I got diagnosed with colerectal cancer recently so i have been struggling to get that out. i had one surgery that...

People think that I'm so open but honestly I'm not people what I want them to know about me. Since I was little I have had a shield without even knowing. I wear a mask . People see what they want...

Okay so here is my attempt at giving a more detailed journal. My life is okay, I am back in school. I already have a ton of hw and I don't have much free time anymore. I am now my nieces soccer teams...

Life has been alright! Back in school and doing a lot of walking/ running. School was rough yeasterdau but I'm glad I'm back and determined to finish. I'm been losing weight lately which makes me...

Trying to do the right thing but everyone is calling me stupid and naive for it. How do you choose between family and doing the right thing. My family and I are different in alot of ways. They can...

My life has recently become alittle confusing. I'm begining to question myself. do i really even know myself?  I want to join the peace corps and go to different countries and help have been...

well my life  being back in cali has been interesting. Its great seeing my family and my old friends. i realised how much i have really changed. i have a different perspective on life now. before i...

My life has been an emotional roller coaster lately. I moved back to Cali. I needed to move on and get over Danielle. I don't feel like I belong here but I really don't know what else to do. I cut...

well i talked to my lanlord and im not getting evicted after all.thank god. i was freaking out.I think im getting stronger. I felt the urge to cut and kill myself all day but i refrained from it...

Things have gotten so bad lately and I feel so alone in it. I'm getting evicted from my apartment. I have to talk myself everyday out of being stupid. I'm learning a lot about myself since Danielle...

since Danielle and i have been separated. life has sucked! I'm getting stronger though. I have been hospatilized three times since she left. I am seeing her true colors now. she can be awfully mean...

Today I'm going to end all of my pain. I've never stopped loving Danielle or my family but I simply cant take it anymore. I'm sorry for hurting everyone.

i am sad because danielle has left me. i dont blame her at all . we are going to try to stay friends. i dont want to lose her completley. it sucks so bad. i feel lost . everyone who i trust with my...