JESSIKAH

egh im sickima go to the doctors tomorrow and see whats wrongomg yesterday was crazyyyyloli want to go to laredo and just see my babybut i cant cause im lameughschool is boringand im just so  tired...

dooom dooom doooom doooom doooom.well latley i have been pretty badi almost overdosed on seroquel but i stopped my self from taking all the pillsugh.i still feel super sad:\my therapist told me that...

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuckhaha i am the bigest stupid asss in the worldi fucked up my relationship for goodim stupidi could have just waited but i didntbut honestly i never thought she was ever going...

ehso yesterday i did some stupid shit. which lead into me losing a friend:[i called mimi yesterday from a restricted numbershe actually answeredi was shockedwhen she said "hello" my heart dropped it...

i feel so much rite nowim super sadi miss someone

well we put my dog down:[ rip brandyummm amanda and i have been fighting she is prego again!life has been up and down for meim kinda sad right now.i wish i wasnti hate that i really like this girl...

so my cousins are in sd which is awesome im having so much funnn!amusement parks were funnnneverything has been awesomei  learned to just not give a fuck anymorehah

so today i feel good:]i dont care anymoreim juyst excited my cousins fly in todaywere going to sea world magic mountain and disney land this week woot woothah and yesterday was bad at first then  it...

im so done with it.and no im not talking about done with lifeim so done with girlswith one girlim done caringim done tryingim done making an effortshe doesnt care cause if she did she wouldnt be...

im so tired of being weaki know i love her but she dont love meso i need to just get over itehi feel brokenit takes all of me to get up in the morningso from now on im doneim deleting my ds sooni...

egh my day went alrite i guessi woke up at veros housei went to schooli went to my sisters house to watch the monster loli came homedid laundrygetting ready for bedmy feelings have gotten in the way...

ok so today is not a great day.they wouldnt let us go see  my cousins grandmathe doctors over there are assholeshahso yesterday i was talking to my 10 yr old lil cousin diego and we started talking...

so i went to school today and was planning to go to my program but i came to my cousins instead to baby sit cause my cousins grandma is really sick in mexico and the doctors over there dont really...

well today was an alright day well except for that i got in to a car accident:\it was pretty bad but we were all okay thoso that was goodhaha i love my friends from my program they are pretty much...

feeling feelings feelings ughi feel tiredi feel angryi feel sadi feel hurti feel worthlessi feel weaktoday was just a bad dayi feel like cutting really bad but im hanging in and im not gunna do it...