JESSIKAH

cant get myself to get upive been crying in this room for already an hour and a half,im shakingmy head hurtsim trying to get myself together for the kids buti cant, so many thoughts are going thru my...

ugh i need to hurry up and get the fuck out of here, i hate this place with passion,fuck it all, i hate it, they all think that they can treat me this way FUCK THEM, dude, idgaf about it anymore, i...

people, always think the worst, like seriously u would try to tell me i used you, hmmm okay, its not my fault  this is happening, remember he was the one  that u  chose, idk what to say,yesss i...

well the past two days have been great, the one girl that i  love with my whole heart, that gets me, always have, she hasnt changed, she claims she did, but she still is that girl that try's to not...

ive been doing a bit betterthanks to a friend:]i still miss mimi more than ever butshe chose this for herself she chose to leaveidkmy mom got into my bank account and took money ugh she disgusts mei...

so im in a lot right nowelisha freaking hates mewe messed around and i regret it so much i miss mimiidk why i miss her so much  she is my lovei aam so retarded somtimes but it is what it isi went to...

latley things have been shit.girls just fuck with my mindughhhh.life suck right nowi miss brishe needs to call a china girl back once in a whilesoccer should be starting again.fun:]i scraped my leg...

well im doing better kindaim at my sister atmbeen spending lots of time with my niece i love her so muchmy depression has gotten way worse since becca leftbut im not letting it take me overi might...

yesterday was a bad day for me but im better nowmy teeth hurt bad my face is all messed up  i have a fat lipfrom beating myself up:[ o well i deserved iton the bright side i  am talking to areally...

im officially done talking to mimishe hates me.im talking to a girl her name is elishashe is super cool we hung out at my house and and it was cool.idk though  =/cause she is still stuck on her ex...

wow:[ i just want to cry right now.im so hurt.i dont know how this all happenedwe were cool that day. the next she hates meand i thought she was just depressed didnt wanna talk to anyone but it wasnt...

i am pretty stupidi suck at lifethe last couple of days have been pretty badi just want to cry at night.ehidk im just super sad and tiredand im at my housenot good not good at alli wish i was at my...

fuck my life:[i feel so lowlike  i have urges to cut but im trying to distract myselfi want to leave this damn worldfuck it mannn!i fucking just want to fucking diei feel like im not gunna get...

okay so camping this weekend was awesome  i loved every minute of it although i missed my phone it was all good.when we got there we just set up then the next day we just went swimming and horse...

just found out the love of my life loves me too.she is trying her best to get herself together i am proud of her.today im going to rosarito, mexico to go camping wooooo! i will be gone till...